All Grown Up

Did you ever see that show? the spin off of The Rugrats? Was amazing.

ANYWAY.

I am happy about the response my last video is getting, a lot of healthy debate, a few of the good old haters. I know I've picked a good topic in a video when I get haters a few hours into posting :)

Today I got offered to teach another class at the Institute where I work and volunteer. With a pay packet and everything. I get to meet the class on Friday before making a decision, which is nice, I can't deny I'm bricking it though.

Part of me is scared I am taking on too much all at once, I still feel like I did when I was 15 (minus the alcohol) but all of a sudden I'm teaching people more than twice my age more than 6 hours a week and being payed for it. Before teaching I had only ever worked behind bars and done some manual temp work, and this seems so real it's freaking me out a little bit.

I'm worried about getting in over my head, that I am committing too quickly, that I am selling off all of my free time (6 hours a week doesn't seem like a lot but then you have to add marking and planning on top of University class and work as well as the volunteering I do it stacks up).

I'm not even sure if I'm that good...

I think I just needed to put down somewhere that I am shit scared about what is happening in my life right now, how real it has all suddenly become.

I think that is all...
Jaz
:)