Monday, 17 August 2009

The Low

Mum says I’m in a mood today. She is joking that it’s because it’s my brother’s birthday (Happy Birthday Zach!) and I’m jealous of the attention he is getting. Maybe it is the jealous little 10 year old in me rearing his blonde head, but I reckon it’s withdrawal symptoms of StickAid on Saturday night and Sunday morning.

I didn’t take part in the whole 24 hours but the period of time that I was there was so intense – I suppose it’s natural to be on a low afterwards.

We were raising money for Unicef, for some of the highlights then click here.

I was going to try and write something today, but failed miserably – it was going to be something about how my views on things are ever changing. I started to write it and, unsurprisingly, I was sounding like a bit of a moron.

I have become very unreliable when it comes to this blog even though writing has gone from something that I feared and despised in school to an art for that I genuinely enjoy partaking in. Flowery language and I have become the best of friends. But then I am conscious that if I do not practice, in the form of using the blog regularly, then I am not going to get better.

I am having the same problem with my languages. I really need to brush up on my Chinese, especially because I am going to be going there on the 3rd of September and will be tested and put in an appropriate class almost immediately. Maybe it is something about staying at my parents’ house. I seem to just stop whenever I come back here – too many distractions, too many people.

Summer in the City is in just under two weeks. I am more excited about this than anything else this summer, and is going to be a great send off only a few days before I leave for China. If you follow my Twitter then you will know I have been working on a short publication with Paul to accompany the gathering that will be on sale throughout the weekend. Have a quick butcher’s at the wonderful cover art that Paul made here.

So, I suppose after all I did manage to write something today – who knows if I will end up being able to do the NHS commentary I promised in my last video, we will see.

I hope your summer (or winter for all you southern hemispherians) is going swimmingly.



theresa said...

Hey jazza,
know excactly what you're talking about concerning language and writing and I pretty much feel the same way.
To keep writing in a foreign language is one of the reasons I started my blog and the the first topic I talked about on there was about how I feel regarding language and writing...
As always it's nice and inspiring to read your thoughts!
bye :)

Anonymous said...

Hey Jazza,

I just have to say, in all the time I've been reading your blog, I never would have guessed that you hated writing at any point in your life. I'm always interested to see what you have to say, as well as how you say it.

You are one of the people I'm most looking forward to meeting at Summer in the City.


Oliver said...

hey, i know exactly what you mean. i would say that i have had in my life, three great days. days where nothing went wrong. days when i was on top of the world and nothing could go wrong. its like a drug, no that's wrong, it IS a drug, and like any drug there are withdrawal symptoms. when i first experience this 'Post Awesome Withdrawal' i thought i was depressed or something, but since i've come to terms with it i realise it's just your brain telling you that you have to experience that high again. if anything its taught me to take more risks, do more crazy things and enjoy my life alot more :) cheers, Oli
(also, i meant to ask, im not sure you even read these comments, but i was at the youtube gathering a while a go with charlie and maureen johnson and i was in your scavenger hunt team and i never got my prize!! just chasing a crazy thought that i might get a signed book or something :D )

Elly said...

I think the thing with writing, or any creative activity actually, is that once you decide you enjoy it and want to do it regularly it gives you the option of rebelling against yourself.

For example, the moment I tried BEDA, I hated writing, and stopped for about a month. But my mindset with ukulele is that I play it when I want to, as a form of entertainment, rather than something to get better at. And I still love it after a year and a half!

It is necessary to give yourself goals, but if you don't mind a slow pace I think sometimes it's better to just go with the flow and your own specific moods :), ramble. Sorry!