Wednesday, 25 February 2009

All Grown Up

Did you ever see that show? the spin off of The Rugrats? Was amazing.


I am happy about the response my last video is getting, a lot of healthy debate, a few of the good old haters. I know I've picked a good topic in a video when I get haters a few hours into posting :)

Today I got offered to teach another class at the Institute where I work and volunteer. With a pay packet and everything. I get to meet the class on Friday before making a decision, which is nice, I can't deny I'm bricking it though.

Part of me is scared I am taking on too much all at once, I still feel like I did when I was 15 (minus the alcohol) but all of a sudden I'm teaching people more than twice my age more than 6 hours a week and being payed for it. Before teaching I had only ever worked behind bars and done some manual temp work, and this seems so real it's freaking me out a little bit.

I'm worried about getting in over my head, that I am committing too quickly, that I am selling off all of my free time (6 hours a week doesn't seem like a lot but then you have to add marking and planning on top of University class and work as well as the volunteering I do it stacks up).

I'm not even sure if I'm that good...

I think I just needed to put down somewhere that I am shit scared about what is happening in my life right now, how real it has all suddenly become.

I think that is all...


amy said...

Behind bars, as in prison?

It must be natural to find it a bit daunting at first, but you gotta be good enough other wise they wouldn't have asked you to teach.

LaDitsterNo1 said...

Aw, I'm sorry I was hard on you earlier then. But as a teacher myself, I completely think you will rock it! I taught people 3 times my age last semester at the Uni level and it was bizarre, but after awhile you realize that learning is a two way street. The students will blow your mind, and you probably teach them a thing or two as well. Free time is for pansies.

iunno said...

Hey, you're young, I'm young, I think you should go for it. As one who loved to eat stuff at Manhattan once said, "when you're young, there are no mistakes; only research." So give it a go, and see how things turn out. If you seem a bit too out of it, the back doors always there, but if you seem to get the hang of it, why my friend, I think you just found something better to do than this so-called "free-time" extraganza. Good day and Good Luck.

Nicholas said...

Real life is always scary in one way or other. Why do you think we all gather in the interwebz :D

Madeline said...

I wish I could say something encouraging, but honestly, I'm in the same place. We can be scared shitless togther :) *interwebz hug* at least you know its not just you!

Zozo said...

Have faith that you are a good teacher Jazza, because you are.